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The last scraps of my faith in humanity have vanished. You've let me become a boring cunt that nobody talks to any more save when they need my ideas.

I need something to hit. And a cigarette. Fuck being quit if this is what the world is like.


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Nov. 14th, 2004 10:43 pm (UTC)
You still had scraps left?

I don't understand tech-posts. That makes me happy and sad at the same time.
Nov. 14th, 2004 10:55 pm (UTC)
There's been plenty more than tech posts in the last few weeks. Apparently nobody has noticed this.
Nov. 15th, 2004 12:58 am (UTC)
In all honesty, Stew, I'm sorry about that. I could make excuses, but I won't, because namely, I'm sure you don't want to hear them.

If you ever want to talk IMwise, though, and I'm on, you can feel free to IM me. I tend to be better at talking that way the LJ wise anyway. I'm usually the one at this computer these days due to homework and the amount of work I've been putting into the CoG Revised Revised Tribebook lately.
Nov. 15th, 2004 01:15 am (UTC)
I'm not one for talking to people on IM normally, because either they aren't around when I am or when they are I have fiuve hundred people messaging me.

What's more important is knowing whether I'm talking bullshit, knowing if my writing's been going downhill -- it has, and I'm trying to fix it, but a few months of shit could have been avoided if people still commented once in a while -- that sort of thing. Nobody comments, and playing to a bad audience is hard. The research is the only thing that gets comments and I'm only putting it here until I can get a proper research blog set up. Without that, I have no feedback. No sign that I am talking shite. Said sign is beneficial to me, not just on the stories but in general.
Nov. 15th, 2004 02:51 am (UTC)
Ya know, I reply to a lot of your posts. Sometimes when I don't really have much time, because I make time for my friends. I'm sorry if that isn't enough for you Stew, I really am. And then sometimes even when I do comment -- or when I send you an email because I'm concerned, because I know what it's like to feel lonely and left out -- I get my head ripped off. Guilt tripped for just not being a good enough friend, ya know? Or I get guilt-tripped for having other friends alongside you.

Yet still I try. And I will continue trying whether you judge that good enough or not. Because you're important to me, dammit.
Nov. 15th, 2004 01:05 pm (UTC)
Initial reply elided because once the backwash is gone I'll regret saying it. Needless to say, I knew something like this would happen but still couldn't help myself.

In stuff that's probably only related in the bits of my mind I don't like, I'll have to remember to locking research posts until I get a proper place for them. If only to prove that part of my mind wrong.
Nov. 15th, 2004 07:51 pm (UTC)
::grins:: If you have five hundred people messaging you, you're damn popular. ::winks::

Yeah, actually I know how you feel. How about we make a deal? ::smiles innocently:: You reply to Juju and I on our Revised Revised Gaian Tribebook Community more often, as other than Juju, Gayle, and I, *no one* is replying to it whatsoever, and we're seeking to please more people than just us, and I'll see to replying to your writings and such. I honestly try to reply, but yeah, I've fallen behind majorly on it lately, and that's my fault.

Seriously, I respect you and your opinions heavily as a writer. I'm like Jim, and sometimes I worry that I'm going to get laid into, but honestly, I should know better than to let that keep me from replying. I know, except with the possibility of politics ::grins::, you'll regret any laying into in the end and that you really won't mean all of what you said in anger. I honestly like you, I honestly respect you, and I honestly believe us to be friends. And as that friend, and as I expect of myself, it's part of my duty to stand up even in the face of your possible anger and be there.

So yeah, I'll work on replying more often. ::nods:: Isn't this a good start?! ::grins::
Nov. 16th, 2004 12:03 am (UTC)
Hey, you know I check out your stuff pretty regularly. Like someone said above, the tech stuff you write up is usually a little beyond me (although I do tend to check links, and try to figure out what the hell you're talking about). With my schedule, sometimes I don't have a lot of opportunity to do more than check email and check one or two websites for news and stuff if I'm ever on my computer, but I do make sure to check out your journal and drop netequitte-ignorant or Mage-related replies when neccessary. ;)

YOU could reply to MY journal every now and then. It's a little more about life crap and random quotes than yours is, but hey, I don't have any sort of audience whatsoever at this point.

Jon/ t0tem7 / apoc
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