I only feel alive when I'm stressed. It's weird. I hate deadlines, hate the crushing pressure, but they do focus my mind. Happened last May, and last October. The results, if it all goes on too long, can be messy. But without it I find it harder and harder to know what to do. Setting myself deadlines doesn't work because I know I'll change or ignore them, there's no consequence for missing them.
How, then, do I deal with this problem without turning life into one stress-crisis after another and losing my mind?
More down than usual today. Caffeine-crash after the ludicrous amounts needed to be alive this morning. Not the most positive of moods.